Right now the side of his face rests against my belly, skin to skin, his warmth magnified by mine. It is a wonder, an absolute awe-filled thing, that just days ago he was on the other side of me, tucked away and unseeable, a secret. Elliot. Elliot with the head full of hair. Elliot with the fifty-eight eyelashes. Elliot with the rounded nose that dips into rounded cheeks that slope to the tiny chin that quivers when he cries, lifts when he smiles in his sleep. A landscape. Elliot. Tiny boy so like and unlike all the other boys who have been born before. So like and unlike whatever small person I imagined my own son to be. Perfection is a rare if not impossible thing, but how could he not be, right now, so young, so soft, exactly as he is here, breathing in and out, making the sounds that all mothers and fathers know as first-speak. Secrets. He is revealing them to me, unspooling them by the minute, by the number of his sighs, and they tangle around my legs and body until I am war
Ahh, withering red oak leaves one of late autumn's most profound signatures. And the grass, is it foxtail (Aloepocuris)?
ReplyDeleteNice pics. Thank you.
I always love your comments, Bill, because so many times I learn something! From what I can find online, I think the grass is foxtail. One of my lifelong goals is to take some ecology/naturalist glasses and really figure out my MN plants.
ReplyDeleteYou can but that on your 30 under 30 list of things to do!
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