Right now the side of his face rests against my belly, skin to skin, his warmth magnified by mine. It is a wonder, an absolute awe-filled thing, that just days ago he was on the other side of me, tucked away and unseeable, a secret. Elliot. Elliot with the head full of hair. Elliot with the fifty-eight eyelashes. Elliot with the rounded nose that dips into rounded cheeks that slope to the tiny chin that quivers when he cries, lifts when he smiles in his sleep. A landscape. Elliot. Tiny boy so like and unlike all the other boys who have been born before. So like and unlike whatever small person I imagined my own son to be. Perfection is a rare if not impossible thing, but how could he not be, right now, so young, so soft, exactly as he is here, breathing in and out, making the sounds that all mothers and fathers know as first-speak. Secrets. He is revealing them to me, unspooling them by the minute, by the number of his sighs, and they tangle around my legs and body until I am war
A stunning and beautiful letter Emily. And what a perfect writing project for your students. Where were all the good writing teachers when I was learning to write. You are inspirational.
ReplyDeleteLet me take the time to wish you and yours a wonderful Christmas and a beautiful year to come. I look forward to all your writings.
Thank you, Bill. And Merry Christmas to you and your family, as well. Hope you get outside! :)
ReplyDeleteWow. That's all I can say right now except... I've got to read it again. What a letter.
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading, SPT. Happy holidays to you and your loved ones!
ReplyDeleteWhat a truly moving letter. And what a truly wonderful project for your students. Well done on both counts.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, beautiful writing, Emily. I've read it through twice now and it reads more and more like a song, a wondrous and keenly felt cadence celebrating all that it means to be who we are. You have a marvellous gift which I sincerely hope is being heard wide and far. An inspiration, a joy. Wishing you a lovely holiday season and an enriching coming year...
ReplyDeleteThank you, Audrey and Julian. The best part of this process was seeing the desire in my students to write their own thanks. I plan on doing it every Christmas.
ReplyDeleteHappy holidays to you both!
Thank you for thinking of us. I know that it means a lot to any service member deployed to get letters for Christmas no matter where they come from. I'll share this on my Facebook so my friends from the service can see it too even though it's February. Hopefully they'll enjoy it as much as i have.
ReplyDeleteJeremy, thank you so much for leaving a comment. I am thrilled--THRILLED--that this letter reached you. I suppose you were one of the exact people I wrote it for after all. Isn't it amazing how that happens?
ReplyDeleteIt is still a brown, warm winter here in Minnesota, although yesterday I woke up to such beautiful hoar frost I had to put on those winter boots and go for a walk. How about you? I still have the desire to imagine your surroundings.
Sending heaps and heaps of appreciation for all you do.
Emily: Regarding your Dec. 21 post: Your writing is superb. I like your style; it's genuine, meaningful, and uniquely refreshing to read. I was in the Army '68-'71, and I appreciaate your apprciation for all who serve. The part "...in a way, you are walking that path for me" is how I currently feel about our people serving in Iraq, and Afganistan.
ReplyDeleteKeep creating your best stuff!
May I recommend Tim O'Brien, esp. The Things They Carried.
Gratefully,
Richard Havenga
P.S. I just started my blog today, at age 64!
Thanks so much for the note, Richard. It's wonderful to find this letter reaching folks through online paths... you were who I wrote it for!
ReplyDeleteAnd I love Tim O'Brien's work. I actually saw him speak a few years ago. If you liked TTTC, I bet you'd also dig "In The Lake of The Woods." Pretty intense read, but wow.
Heading over to your blog now!
This is so beautiful! As a Military Mother this means so much to me!!
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